Monday, October 1, 2012


The world has always been kind to me. Sure I've been through some stuff in my day. But -- right now I am feeling overwhelmed with gratitude for all that I have and have had.

Two amazing things happened today:

1) I mentioned that I needed a studio to somebody, and he said, I have one, take it for as long as you need. And so I was given an 800 square foot studio. I asked him whether I could pay him, and he said absolutely not. So now I have a key to an 800 square foot studio. And I can do my work, and photograph it.

2) My brother, who is going through some serious shit right now, is living his dream come true of becoming a professional dancer. Today was his first day on the job. In addition to this he sent me a care package. ME. Because he thought I was "going through it." Which, I guess I am, but it's mostly out of worry for him. But he saw that, and saw past his own troubles and looked to mine, which I didn't even realize that I had...really.

I could go on about all of the other out-of-this-world gifts I have been given from the universe lately. A warm, safe house where I wake up happy every day, a visit from out-of-town friends, a phone call from somebody who noticed my work online ... etc. etc. But the list might never end. All I can do is acknowledge it, and try my best to contribute in my own little ways.

And then of course, after saying all of this, I remember. The universe didn't have as much to do with these things as people did. Real people, goo and flesh and flaw, with real problems and real lives, who just happened to go out of their way make other people's lives a bit more awesome and probably don't know the extent to which they bring the sun into my world. Well. Universe, and people, or some combination of the two, thanks. I needed that.

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